Checked out

I hate you. Because you came into my life and then chose to leave. Yes, you came INTO my life, because that's what you did -you became a part of my day to day, I shared my dreams, my passions,my fears... you were INSIDE the essence of my being. You even got an understanding of what triggers my emotions because I let you experience the inner me. I shared the core of me with you didn't I? So really, you were pretty much INSIDE my life.

But then you decided to  check out just like that... like my life was a drive through that you could just arrive at, experience for a short while and then simply whisk off... yet you moved into my life... or maybe I moved you in and never realised that you were only staying on a term contract and not permanently.

I wish I'd known that you  intended on driving through because I would have given you fast food, but instead I gave you an entire home cooked meal- my core... yet still you checked out , and it sucks because the issue is that when you come INTO my life, somehow my heart makes you a part of it and now you're convoluted into my experiences... but now you chose to leave , so I'm left trying to  untangle everywhere  that you had been moved into.

It's not easy, it's flippen annoying. Especially because you don't seem bothered.

I'm not mad because I know  it's just life. I've checked out of other people's lives too-because as much as they had moved me into their lives, I hadn't moved in... I guess it's happening to me now. So I can't blame you. But I can hate you... because it's easier to do so, than to face the fact that I'm hurting... I'm trying to move forward, but like I said, when you came INTO  my life- you got tangled into my experiences,  so you kinda keep popping  up at every turn.

It's annoying, because my reality is that you've unmistakably checked out. So I hate you for it.