We take on risk- that's Okay.

I suppose the only certain relationships we have in life are the ones that we have with family. Everything else is a gamble. We have no idea how long it will last, but we take the risk anyway. 

Half the time we think that it's going to last forever... buy it's a gamble, there is a risk that it won't. And the end comes anyway. Uncalled for. If it's meant to end, even if you so badly want to  hold on and you want it to last,you want it to survive... you ought to let it go.

We are always surprised as if we didn't know that nothing is certain. But the thing is that we forget. In all the excitement,  we forget and then we actually believe that this relationship, this one is absolutely invincible. Oh how foolish we can be in our euphoria. How gullible, how impressionable  like little kids. We start taking people at their word- as if that has ever stopped life from happening to all of us.

When life chooses to dish out a hurricane- to just disrupt all the order and certainty you'd created... not even the promises made during  blissful times can withstand the hit... And then all we have left of the words we held onto for certainty is, "I'm sorry". That's all we have,  we have everyone in the relationship being sorry that they said stuff they meant, but somehow they stopped fulfilling it, and even now they can't fulfil it. All we have left is "sorry," and it HAS to make everything okay... it absolutely has to because it's the only ointment we have.
So we accept the sorries ,  we pick up what's left of our fragments after the hurricane- and we move forward.  We move forward and accept that the risk we tried so hard to hedge, was unhedgeable. 

It's okay, We  can run back to the arms of the only certain relationships that we have -family.We run there,  and maybe we can rebuild ourselves. 

Then- for some absurd reason that is beyond me- we get up, and start forming new risky relationships again... because you see, the idea of risk invigorates us and we feel like we are alive... it really imbues no logic at all... but it's part of the human experience... and that's okay.